...so what's next?

so that question pretty much has been my life lately. and i think it defines all of our lives though.

Aj--are you going to Houston fo sho next semester?

Al--what's your poa? The invite to come hur is still open...but, as the question suggests, i don't know what the fuck i'm doing either or what's my next move.

I still have yet to hear back from Code and Fusion in New York about whether they want me or not. David Bosman from Boss had replied to me last week (and I wrote back last night) saying he had talked to Sarah Doukas from Storm (a London agency--Sarah is the one who discovered Kate Moss) about photos of me from a shoot in New York he talked to me about setting up. Things look up, but everything always seems to fall apart. If I don't hear back by Wednesday, I'm going to call them all up and find out where I stand...I hope I don't have to though!

This question was also floating around last night with Aaron. I haven't posted anything about him, but I ran into him last Sunday night and have seen him every day since. He dated Annie in high school long distance for a little over a year, but I don't know. Basically, we just clicked. It was shockingly easy, refreshing, and comfortable with him. We have the same ideas and logic about relationships and, simply put, wanted to spend all the time we had together because we don't know if everything will ever line up again.

But last night we got to the '...so what's next?' question. The answer we pretty much settled on was 'lets see.' I fell asleep numerous times during the conversation. I did that thing I do where I fall asleep while talking. x5. haha. I think I will always be happy to hear from him regardless of who else I may be with or what happens next. It's been fun and magic and cutesy and sexy and utterly what I needed after Logan and Cory. Someone that shamelessly adored me but didn't cling one bit.

Other than Aaron, hostessing and work drama has been dominating my life. Philbert is too much to handle (my dramatic black gay co-host dating a confused, desperate, hot bisexual waiter at the restaurant).My other friends came back in town so I saw Chessie a lot which was fun. Alex Detrano and I bonded quite a bit, still absolutely adore him.

I volunteered at the garden yesterday which was nice. It's weird because the restaurant I work at is going to start buying from the Garden, so the guys in charge of the garden were eating with the Chef the other day and I chatted with them. So now the Chef definitely knows who I am and is super excited to go to the garden 'open house' Saturday with me and talked about this and that. It's like I'm on board and his mascot for the Jolly Cricket (the restaurant) but my interest and efforts were completely independent of the place. The owners also now know exactly who I am and met my sister. It's a small, small world here in Naples. Somehow, against all odds though, I continue to meet new people. It blows my mind that I don't know them all already. haha.

I think I'm going to run out to B&N and snuggle up with Omnivores Dilemma. I lost it, so I'll be reading in-store till closing :)

Love you BOTH! it feels crazy good to feel like i'm talking to 2 of you.