I feel like it has been ages since I have sat down and written something on the blog.
It might have to do with my mind, which is currently running circles - a bigger circle every time. Sometimes I feel like my body tries to outrun my mind in the circle race and then my mouth feels left out and joins in too oh and then my tongue really gets freaked out that the mouth ran off so it decides circles are the way to go. So while my oh so divine third eye stays in place and points and laughs "SUCKAS" - the rest of me is running like madwoman's.
As much as I can scold myself and reprimand my unhealthy syndrome of circle running - I can only sympathize with myself and make the circles beautiful. I want to act. I want to dance. I want to perform. I want to train. I want I want I want I want oh my! It is quite the job keeping up with myself! I can't even imagine how I lived in Austin. It is like my body and mind are tasting freedom and are like 16 year olds with a fake I.D. Really Mature.
Sometimes they get a little excited about the I.D. and just feel the need to use it ALL the time - and of course, they cannot hold their alcohol. We've had a couple nights with a toilet seat pillow - and a couple days of hanging over each other.
Other than that, my mind and body are doing well. Accepting and turning neutrally numb and dumb every time I walk into HCC - some kid asked me my name and I had no idea what was going on - Oh I'm supposed to open my mouth and talk in school? Shit. Sorry man, I am turned off for the moment. Kid stared at me - I stared at him - he left. I still did not know what was going on. Splendid Ajna. Just Splendid -You are now officially Socially Inept.
I went to a spinning class today and the teacher asked me my name and spent the entire fifty minutes screaming on his little microphone - "GO ASHNA. GO ASHNA. 5 4 3 2 1. YOU CAN DO IT ASHNA. OH GOOD JOB ASHNA. COMMON ASHNA. OHH COMMON ASHNA. FASTER. FASTER. FASTER. OHHH. FASTER. FASTER. FASTER. OHHH ASHNA." Then he winked. That is probably the most action I have gotten here in Houston - it is like we had Spinning Verbal Sex while everyone was in the room - how scandalous! I feel so good - I feel like I got a rush with all the sound effects - only BETTER. I don't have to wake up to anyone and I can have the bed to myself. Ah.
I might need to get out some more.
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oh that made me smile and giggle :) my home is in you. no wonder i feel lost in florida!
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