I broke up with my boyfriend. And all the reasons to break up piled up and kept piling, but I couldn't say them and I can't think of them right now. I broke up after one of the best nights we've ever had followed by one of the most petty fights in the morning. But it made me cry, again. And now I've made myself cry. I've made myself sick, my head hurts. I really care about him and I feel like shit. I picture myself calling him or running back to him telling him I change my mind, it was stupid, I do want it all and can handle it--and I know that is what he is waiting for. The more time that goes by and I don't make a move...(I can't make it.)...the more real it is.
It's the right thing for me. Just right now, at this moment, it is the worst.
music of the moment:
Shark in the Water by VV Brown
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